Over it!

Okay. Today was the hardest by far. I am cranky and tired. And tired of being cranky! If you don't want to read a grumpy post, just skip this one or at least skip to the bottom**. I'm warning you now, I'm not about entertaining the masses with this post, I'm all about getting out the frustration!

My mouth hurts, but the last time I took a pain pill I woke up with a great stomachache that made my chest hurt. I'm pretty sure that was some form of hunger pains, since I have not been eating nearly enough but I still am put off of taking any more pain meds. I've also lost four pounds.

The pain is not like you would think. It's not like "oh my mouth has been sliced open" although let's face it, it has. It's more of a just-had-my-braces-tightened kind of pain. If you've had braces, you remember how all you wanted to do was grind your teeth, and of course I CAN NOT do that! And I've been talking more today and that seems to aggrevate it. It's wierd because my whole mouth is involved, not just the parts that should be hurting. So I'm not sure why that is. Maybe where I was given shots to deaden it? Or maybe everything is just more connected than you think. Probably the latter, since I have all the extra buising and swelling.

And the kids are getting a little crazy. Scratch that, make it a lot crazy. D and my mom are doing a fabulous job, but...their schedule is completely off. I went down today and had absolutely no idea when Little m was supposed to eat because D has been feeding her at a completely different time. So tomorrow when he goes back to work it should be fun. And she hit me in the chin today, on accident, but still. Ow. And D tells me last night that the dentist told him that the graft is "extremely fragile". Lovely.

And Little d. She has been losing it. It's the change to her regular system I think. She been throwing horrid tantrums and today I thought I'll be all tough and get her back in line since I've just been watching and not talking for the last few days. Well after her meltdown, things seem a little better, but I'm not taking credit. It may just be that I'm talking more and she thinks things are getting back to normal.

The way I feel tonight, I think things are far from being normal. Here's another tidbit. I am one of those people who is CONSTANTLY chewing on my lips. And as of Wednesday I can't do that. Jeez louise! I think that is driving me just as nuts as everything else! I still can't even eat a roll. Too much chewing. My diet consists of noodle soup, scrambled eggs, grilled soy cheese sandwiches (minus the crust of course) and mashed potatos.

My followup appointment is Thursday afternoon. But I'm thinking that even then things are going to be pretty restricted for another week. Okay enough pity party for now. If you've read this far, thanks for hanging in there.

**I did stumble across a beautiful new blog this weekend. I have been riveted and can't stop reading. It's a woman living in Morocco with her husband and three children. She's poetic and artistic and has beautiful photos. The address is on the laptop, where I'm not right now, so I'll have to add it to my list a little later so look for it.**